19 March 2007

tennesee january, everything ordinary you're unlike everything i've seen

Tennessee never fails to capture my heart. This road trip definitely makes the top 5 :) In case you are wondering what that list is:

1. July 2005 - Nashville, TN/Winston-Salem, NC
2. August 2004 - Baltimore, MD/DC
3. January 2007 - Boston, MA/SUCO
4. April 2006 - Nashville, TN
5. March 2007 - Atlanta, GA/Nashville, TN

Wonderful times, wonderful memories.

Seeing my Milligan friends was wonderful. Seeing Milligan was surreal. It was a strange, distant, yet familiar, planet. I knew all of the customs but not the new people. I still had the back roads memorized, but landmarks had been removed. It felt like I was going home after a long time away. And the best thing about this trip? (Besides Hawk Nelson) The feeling that no time has passed. It's been almost a year since I've seen these people and we picked up right where we left off. If anybody knows a better feeling than that, please, point me towards it.

Nashville was amazing.
Atlanta was amazing, but I was antsy to get to Milligan.
Chattanooga was pretty sweet. Wish I would have been able to see more of the city.
JC was pretty much the same.

I feel like being in a coma. I need to sleep. And bring on the suffering that my friend Amanda has dubbed "PSBD." (Post Spring Break Depression) Bring it PSBD. I'm ready.

Bless.

04 March 2007

thank you helpy mchelperton

I feel like a kid again. I just finished watching Ace Ventura: When Nature Calls and now I'm listening to early 90's pop. It feels so wonderful :)

I met this incredible girl yesterday. She just started working at Papa Chicago's with me. She and I got to talking and discovered that we were both Christians. And hearing her story and love for Jesus and music and longing to go to Nashville, really helped me come to the conclusion that everybody you meet is not an accident. That everybody you come into contact with is worth something. She's coming here next year, I can't wait to see how this friendship develops.

Exactly one week until I am back in Tennessee. It's been almost a year since I've been there and seen these people. But if the trend keeps up like it was at PCTC, it will seem like no time has passed. I don't know what my initial reaction will be to be looking some of my best friends in the face again. I hope I don't cry, but I probably will. I know I'll laugh and scream. Shannon and I will probably do the girly jump up and down thing. Wes and I will hug our normal hug (only this time, it applies :) I can't wait for next Sunday! Everywhere I look this week, I'll see somebody from Milligan, I know it. And that will drive me crazy.

I'm not one to normally give something up for Lent. I've thought about it years past, but I never committed. This year, I thought I'd try it. But instead of giving something up, I decided to read a chapter of the Bible each night. Starting with Romans, I realized I started with one of the most depressing books. But I've found some treasures I can apply to my life: Trust in God, Trust me. It's something that I've been desperately working on. I'm getting better and trusting God, and knowing that he's got things under control.

I think I've reached that point. I had a dream last night where I suddenly discovered that I had wings. But to me they looked like wings you could purchase at the local dollar store. But when I walked up to the balcony to jump, I hesitated once, then I thought to myself: "He's got you. You're okay," and then I jumped. And it was an incredible feeling, flying through this fantasy world I had created. Oh, and James Van Der Beek was there for some reason. But he's really not relevant to this dream.

This is longer than I intended. But listening to Hanson gets me this way. Too bad they are going to be in Allentown tonight and I can't see them. I have to work. I don't think I feel like going anywhere tonight though, I'm not feeling like I'm missing anything.

But I am still a Hanson fan.
Don't get me wrong on that one.

Bless.

01 March 2007

today is not forever, tomorrow will come in time

Love to Jonathan Steingard.

I just talked to my best friend on the phone. 3000 miles sucks, and phone's cannot make up for that distance. But it's worth it to deal with it. I'll see him this summer :)

1 week from departure. I'm feeling it. Everyday seems to drag. As if everybody is coated with molasses. Praise Jesus I only have 3 days of classes this week.

Mark Paul-Gossalear on SVU? Yes, please.

I guess this is one of those blogs that I kind of type and hope that something insightful or inspirational will flow from my fingers. But honestly, I just felt like posting and rambling. Because I don't seem to ramble enough to my friends...(okay, that's a lie.)

For those of you that don't know yet:
My friend Matt Wertz, after three years of me listening to him and getting to know him, is finally in stores. Everything in Between hit stores this past Tuesday. Mainly local music shops, but he is in both Borders and Barnes and Noble. I'm not gonna lie, I had some tears of joy. It's exciting watching a friend succeed. Upsetting yeah, but I do want the best for him :)

Not only is Mark Paul-Gossalear is on SVU, he's playing a porn star....I wonder if his porn name is Zack Attack.

I played with more buttons today in the studio.

This is basically my mind, random sentences and blurbs that kind of pop into existence. It's a way of getting things out. Plus, close friends read this. They understand :)

Where do you go when you're alone? The rain on your face, the wind and the cold. You smile cause you know, you're not far now. This is your escape and everyone knows that. California seems so far from where ever you are.

Bless.